Below are the 20 most recent journal entries recorded in Erica's LiveJournal:

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Tuesday, June 21st, 2005
10:17 am	some of you didn't get the memo new journal: _nowdenial I'm not using this one any more. (1 emo kids saved | save a secret emo kid)
Friday, May 27th, 2005
10:51 am	announcement: This journal (like high school) is over and gone and will be deleted soon. I have absolutely no interest in some of your lives and some of you have no interest in mine. I started friending people on my other journal and realized that it would be easier just to see who friends me and friend them back. So, if you think that I'll add you back, especially if I don't know that you've been reading this one: _nowdenial _nowdenial _nowdenial This new journal will be a lot different, it'll be more of a record of starting off college and probably turn into being almost completely photos. Once I have access to scanners and whatnot, I want to try to show a lot more through photos. (2 emo kids saved | save a secret emo kid)
Saturday, May 21st, 2005
12:28 pm	i need to make a new journal my schedule for the week: today - Ed's BBQ and afterwards hopefully poplife sunday - Jessie's graduation party during the early evening and maybe the show at the factory afterwards? monday - hanging out with laura maybe? tuesday - dr's appt urgh weds - nothing so far thursday - leave that afternoon for cali since my sister will probably have her baby that day or friday come back from cali on monday morning tuesday - senior luncheon and rehearsal weds - dont know thursday - grad rehearsal friday - GRADUATION saturday and sunday...parties monday - job time yeah...call me if you wanna hang out or know of stuff going on
Wednesday, May 18th, 2005
7:59 pm	on the couch at the end of the world Alice, the world is full of ugly things That you can't change Pretend it's not that way It's my idea of faith You can blow it off And say there's good in nearly everyone Just give them all a chance Now let's give them all a chance ( and we don't look like pictures from a magazine/but that's all right/that's all right ) let's show them how it's done/let's do it all imperfectly I haven't written in this in a while. Prom. the end of school, its all come about. I saw this couch on the side of the road, freaked out, and made everyone go play on it. I've got some polaroids of it too that I like a lot better, I'll probably scan those once I have time. a lot of other stuff has been going on, but there's no need to write about it. But I found the couch at the end of the universe and lately I've been finding meaning in everything. These are good things. Current Mood: aggravated (10 emo kids saved | save a secret emo kid)
Monday, April 25th, 2005
11:19 am	( the same in color ) "the photographer is not simply the person who records the past, but the one who invents it" ((Brendon and Hoxie discussing their scene before spring scenes)) Current Mood: thoughtful Current Music: Ben Folds Five - Losing Lisa (12 emo kids saved | save a secret emo kid)
Saturday, April 23rd, 2005
11:57 am	my way of defeating that really overwhelming aloneness is by loving other people and being loved in return
Tuesday, April 19th, 2005
9:44 pm	This is one voice not to forget; "Fight every fight like you can win; An iron fisted champion, An iron willed fuck up." Can anybody tell me why God won't speak to me? Why Jesus never called on me to part the fucking seas? Why death is easier than living? You can be almost anything When you're on your fucking knees. Do you want to love and feel it? You can look but you can't taste it. You can reach but you'll never have it. We are untouchable; Untouchable is something to be. Current Mood: nostalgic
Saturday, April 16th, 2005
8:40 pm	I don't want to think about how much I'll miss these days. So let's hope they never end. ( rant ) Yuster, Christie, Carlie, and B-Al made regionals. I'm rereading "The Vampire Lestat" and "Candide" "'We are going to a new world,' said Candide, 'and no doubt it is there that everything is for the best; for it must be admitted that one might lament a little over the physical and moral happenings of our own world.'" Today I found a prom dress, a demand, and an incredible, amazing, fantastic summer job. Spent the day with Bianca, Alex, and Brian. "If I don't let myself by happy now then when?" Bowling tonight and then movies. Everyone is coming together - I love it. Had an awesome conversation with Dr. Bachow about acne and my and Alex's lack of it. Alex and I failed the acne quiz, unfortunately. I'm Ron Burgundy?? Tell the truth, explain to me How you got this need for speed She laughed and said "it might just be The next best thing to love." I've been spending a lot of time in Boca recently. Everything is going too well...I'm waiting for a crisis. Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: copeland - hold nothing back (11 emo kids saved | save a secret emo kid)
Friday, April 15th, 2005
4:23 pm	love is a place & through this place of love move (with brightness of peace) all places yes is a world & in this world of yes live (skilfully curled) all worlds (save a secret emo kid)
Tuesday, April 12th, 2005
7:50 pm	they'll never do the things that they wish that they could do so well "To live for results would be to sentence myself to continuous frustration. My only sure reward is in my actions and not from them." - Hugh Prather What an interesting observation: all of the people who tell me that "being silent does nothing" never actually say too much on the subject normally. If they did, maybe I would listen to them more. It doesn't matter to me either way though. I like feeling as though I'm doing something, even if its small, even if it seems meaningless - I know that its not. Think Ghandi, "Noncooperation is intended to pave the way to real, honorable and voluntary cooperation based on mutual respect and trust.". Sometimes saying nothing is the same as screaming. PS. some of us believe in helping others with real problems, and actually believe that we CAN change things (even if it has to start small). You never get the chance to do anything on a big scale if you don't start out small. I couldn't sleep at night if I didn't try to fix the world around me. Current Mood: calm Current Music: razorlight - golden touch
Monday, April 11th, 2005
9:03 pm	I planned this last year - and I'm right back again this year.... The Day of Silence, a project of the Gay, Lesbian and Straight Education Network (GLSEN) in collaboration with the United States Student Association (USSA), is a student-led day of action where those who support making anti-LGBT bias unacceptable in schools take a day-long vow of silence to recognize and protest the discrimination and harassment -- in effect, the silencing -- experienced by LGBT students and their allies. The Day of Silence takes place April 13, 2005. Don't wait! http://www.dayofsilence.org/ Meet in front of the library at 7:30--7:40 to cut out messages explaining what the day of silence means (available on the website above) and paste them on notecads to show teachers/hand out to other people. It's really nice to meet before...I'll bring snacks and juice and its nice to come together as a group of people all doing this. Please don't say anything to any of your teachers earlier because its much better if we can do it without the administration coming after me again (which they love to do). So far it looks a LOT bigger than last year so I'm really excited :). Current Mood: excited Current Music: only the good die young (18 emo kids saved | save a secret emo kid)
5:28 pm	It turns out all your friends They were just mean dressed up So, come on kids eat those pills You got your whole life to lose We've got so many friends That wear their feet too big for their shoes We've got cities to visit We've got trees we've yet to live in And so get yourself on top of me Before I'm gone, gone, gone And I was so young I thought that acting old Would get me all your love Give me all you've got And all night long On your front lawn I'd build you a neon village And you said bring on new diseases If they're good for you Then they'll be good for me Yeah, if it's good for you then it's good for me If it's good for you then it's good for me So come on kids eat those pills You've got your whole life to lose We've got so many friends That wear their feet too big for their shoes We've got cities to visit We've got trees we've yet to live in And so get yourself on top of me Before I'm gone gone gone Current Mood: bored Current Music: cursive - the recluse
Sunday, April 3rd, 2005
4:22 am	its amazing how much you can lie through a photo. what you think as soon as you see this is probably ridiculously far from the truth of what was actually going on. Photography is a portrayal and is neither inherently truthful or false. I can make a camera lie just as easily as I can make it show what I see. I'm choosing to be a censor, to filter the world as I see fit. Its interesting...have I devoted my future to artistically lying? And is this bad? life has been going by pretty fast the past few days. Current Mood: awake Current Music: bright eyes - lucious jackson (5 emo kids saved | save a secret emo kid)
Thursday, March 17th, 2005
8:28 am	so who was that mysterious prank caller?? (6 emo kids saved | save a secret emo kid)
Monday, March 14th, 2005
8:11 pm	just a few random polaroids I scanned in these aren't anything special...I'm still getting the hang of using this. I think the coloration/sharpness is off on a lot of this because of my crappy scanner but here we go... ( Read more... ) Current Mood: busy Current Music: copeland (7 emo kids saved | save a secret emo kid)
Thursday, March 10th, 2005
10:46 am	RIP The Get Up Kids - every mix CD that I've ever made has had a Get Up Kids song on it - There is still a text messge saved on my phone from Alex that says "last night on the mass pike..." - I dragged Aron around Boston so that I could find a Mass Pike song to take a picture in front of - I made a shirt once that said, "I'm a get up kid" - I was driving on Federal and "Ten Minutes" came on - I started singing along loudly at a light and looked next to me to see one of my teachers laughing at me. - On my 18th birthday, Ashley sang "Mass Pike" to me and it made me cry - One of the few bands that can make me dance and also make me cry - I always put on "Ten Minutes" when we were on the way to Revolver - my first iTunes purchase was the one Get Up Kids CD that I didn't have - I like their version of "Alec Eiffel" better than the Pixies version - I was so happy that the Get Up Kids had a song called "Washington Square Park" since thats where I'll be living next year - I'm more inclined to go up to people I don't know and talk to them if they are wearing something Get Up Kids related - They named a song after the book "The Outsiders" (Stay Gold, Ponyboy) - I stole Ashley's Get Up Kids pin, and its been attached to my jeans - I don't even think about it anymore...its just on there.    Thank you, Get Up Kids, for being the absolute soundtrack to a portion of my life last year.  For writing a song for every occasion from happy (10 Mintes) to sad (Valentine, I'll Catch You) to just pure amazing (Mass Pike).  Goodbye to greatest band ever.  (for me anyways) Current Mood: nostalgic Current Music: shannon and cat are laughing at me (6 emo kids saved | save a secret emo kid)
Monday, March 7th, 2005
4:33 pm	we might die from medication, but we sure killed all the pain. "Be careful what you pretend to be, because we are who we pretend to be." - Kurt Vonnegut (17 emo kids saved | save a secret emo kid)
Monday, February 21st, 2005
6:42 pm	fun times. Current Mood: amused Current Music: godspeed you black emperor (7 emo kids saved | save a secret emo kid)
Tuesday, February 15th, 2005
12:10 am	mmm sushi I hope the sun's out in new york, I hope he bought you roses. Current Mood: okay (1 emo kids saved | save a secret emo kid)
Saturday, February 12th, 2005
5:27 pm	I only become creative when I have silly English assignments to do.. ((i found a fatal flow in the logic of love and went out of my head)) ( Read more... ) Current Music: the dresden dolls (10 emo kids saved | save a secret emo kid)